So I sat in the ruins of my former belief system wondering what am I supposed to do now? I became very bitter and distant from everyone including my family. I began to look at what was left. I realized that I had no actual reason to believe in any god. I started to look into what atheism is. In the simplest of terms atheism is a lack of belief in a god. I was an atheist. I guess I needed a label in my mind to kind of check off a box of some sort. With the box checked I did more digging and came upon The Atheist Experience. It’s an internet based call in show where theists and atheists call in with questions. I binged probably about two years worth of shows through podcasts in about a month. It helped me clarify some of the things I was wondering about and gave me a sense of a new foundation of thinking critically.
I also began seeing a therapist at this time. He’s helped me kind of see the world differently. Sort of like having being in the dark for a while and having your eyes adjust to the light (funny, a year ago I would have used the same wording to describe what it’s like becoming a Christian). He diagnosed me with “adjustive disorder”. Again it’s nothing more than a phrase for what I was experiencing but I like my check boxes. I continue to see him on a regular basis however most of my short fusedness, depression, anger, and bitterness have come down to a more manageable level.
So that’s the story so far. I continue to look into new ways of thinking about the world with out my religious lens and that’s really what the blog is going to be about, my observations. I hope that you all can help me point out flaws in my reasoning and continue to help me grow as a person. If you have anything you’d like to see me tackle I’d be up for that too!