Continued from Part 5
Dating in high school was an interesting situation. Being that I was so into Christianity that left a lot of “normal” things off the table. However I had my father sending kind of mixed signals. He wanted me to have a similar high school experience to him however was also teaching me the morality of Christianity. He didn’t push abstinence only on me and told me that if I was going to have sex to use a condom. But at the same time telling me to do what the bible said (don’t have sex until marriage). This felt very conflicted. Along the same lines dating wasn’t supposed to be all fun and games, it was supposed to be looking for a future wife. How messed up is that? I was 15 years old and was supposed to be looking at every girl I dated as the girl I’m supposed to spend the rest of my life with? I didn’t even know what that was supposed to look like!
I dated girls off and on, some serious, some not so serious. But I always put my whole heart into it, so it hurt anytime I was broken up with. I recently found my old livejournal account (everyone had one at the time…dating myself I know), and realized I was kind of an ass. I dated girls and looked for a way out to date some other girl I may have liked. Not realizing at the time that I was doing anything wrong. It kinda makes me sick looking back at it now.
One thing that did come from that thought was I did meet the person I would spend the rest of my life with. She was in one of my classes. I won’t go too deep into it now as that’s for another post entirely but she was certainly the greatest thing that came from high school. Being the “good” Christian that I was, I of course had to make sure she started going to my church. I dragged her along with me to as many youth events as she’d agree to go to. Long story short we got married at that church.