With the move to the new domain there is a lot of house keeping that needs to be done. Posts may be delayed or missed entirely while I work through this. Sorry for the delay but I’ll be back to the normal schedule very soon! Thanks for your patience!
So I’m obviously currently using worpress.com’s free version. I was debating on switching to a self hosted site since I have all the systems set up. The cost would only be that of a domain name, as opposed to something like $36/year through WordPress .However I don’t want to lose the followers and reader functions that are present in WordPress.com. So, my question to you, fellow bloggers, what are you doing for custom domains?
I’ve come to the realization that writing a post every days is easier said than done. With that being the case I’m going to kinda break things up in to sections per day.
I’ll be starting a series of my thoughts while reading the Bible with my new skepticism. I’ll have a day on definitions (I know those will be short lived and I’ll replace it with something with more substance once I run out of words). I’ll have a day on my observations and a day that’s a deeper explanation of my background.
Thoughts? What would you like to see? Maybe an ask an atheist day?
I remember as a Christian being told that “god has a meaning for your life”. During my de-conversion I worried that life suddenly has no meaning. If I wasn’t meant to serve the invisible sky daddy any more so I can have eternal bliss what was the point? This sent me into quiet a bit of depression. One of the many reasons I sought help. I also began to read a lot of responses online regarding this. The main thing I came to was that my life has the meaning I ascribe to it. My life is important because it’s important to me and those who care about me.
This premise was hard for me to swallow. If you’ve ever suffered from depression you know that it can be hard to find yourself important to yourself let alone anyone else’s eyes. So again I found my self struggling with a deeper depression. I guess when I was a believer I always thought of my sky daddy caring about me even if no one else did. That gave me some comfort. Not having that security blanket anymore I felt exposed. I say that in the past tense not because the feeling is gone but more as a fading feeling.
As far as what meaning I’ve ascribed to my life so far, well so far I have a very minimal description. Provide a life of relative comfort for myself and my family, continue to expand my mind through learning, and spreading my thoughts. I guess in a way that last one will make me somewhat immortal. Sure only a handful of people will ever read this but these thoughts will live forever in the “mind” of the internet.
I’m still working through my depression and probably will for a long while. But I’m actually working on it instead of “giving it to god” which is a phrase I never understood. What are your thoughts on meaning for life? How do you ascribe meaning to your life?
So I’ve been thinking lately (which is a big change from how I used to be). I remember a time when I used to ask myself how could an atheist even be a thing? How could they prove that god didn’t exist? It’s clearly undeniable that god is doing everything! How could we even exist with out god (that’s a topic for a whole other post)? How could we be us if we didn’t have a soul?
Looking back I had the burden of proof all wrong. It wasn’t for the atheist to provide proof of a lack of a god, it was supposed to be on me for claiming there was one. I’ve recently heard that extraordinary claims require extraordinary proof. That works kinda like this. If one were to tell me they have a Facebook account there is very little proof needed. I know Facebook is a thing, I know a lot of people have one and it would be just as easy for me to pull out my phone and look them up. Not a big claim so I can easily take them at their word for it. The reverse of that is someone claims they have an invisible hippo living in their basement that eats carbon dioxide and poops rainbow. That would require a bit of proof. I make the second example a bit incredulous on purpose. I would almost find that more believable than a magic sky man who created the universe yet still cares about me but not enough to actually show himself in any demonstrable way.
Hm that last sentence brings up a good idea for another post about the character of the Christian god…I’ll have to work on that one soon.
As I’ve left Christianity I’ve one thing that I’ve missed is the community. It was a built in time at least once a week where I was able to hang out with people. They even had a place for my kids so I could have a grown up conversation. It was a nice thing to have but something I’ve given up with my lack of belief. Sure I could find a church and fake it I suppose, but I would have to fake it and that sounds exhausting.
I know there are atheist groups around me and even some Secular Humanist groups but being a huge introvert it’s hard for me to even think about venture out. That and I have two kids (4 and 1 1/2) which makes attending these groups even a bit more difficult.
I’m not looking to start a pity party just wanted to express that I guess I wasn’t expecting this whole atheism thing to be so lonely.
Doing a bit of digging in search of questions people may have for atheists that I could answer up. Having a hard time coming up with a good list that doesn’t require me being an expert in biology, astrophysics, quantum mechanics and the like. If you have a question you’d like me to answer put it below!
Sorry if you’re into Twilight fan-fic but that’s not what this post is about. I’m thinking more of how I now see the world and morality. Previously I saw everything in black and white, right or wrong with no middle ground in between. I had what I thought was a users guide to how life worked. Any question I had I could just open this magical book and the answer would be there…somewhere.
Looking back I did what I think a lot of Christians do when looking to the Bible for answers. Take the verse they found, manipulated it to fit their situation and said “ah ha! The bible does have all the answers!” I now know this was simply confirmation bias. But I’m getting on to a whole other post all together with that.
With my guide in hand I had all the morals I would ever need right in hand 24/7. I didn’t have to think about these kind of things for myself. There was a long time when I didn’t even really read this book. I took the pastor’s word for it. I was happy to live this way for a long time. As I grew older I began to actually read this book. I found things that seemed…wrong to me. I read through the lovely book of Leviticus aka the book of the law. It talked about stoning people to death for what seemed the simplest of things. Even giving rules on how to treat your slaves. If there are laws on how you are supposed to treat your slaves did that mean having slaves was ok? I wasn’t down with that. Not to mention the rituals that were involved for things you had no control over. Women aren’t to be touched for a week during their period. What the hell is that about? And there were even rules for having a wet dream. Like seriously? That’s not even a thought crime because you have no control of that. It just happens. And that’s enough for you to remove yourself from the community.
I was on the leadership team of my church during this time. We had a routine team meeting and the topic of homosexuality came up. Someone asked about homosexuals serving in ministry and the decision was that they could server but couldn’t lead a ministry, nor could they sing on the worship team or be the lead teacher in a Sunday school room. I left that meeting sick to my stomach. I began question this book. If it was to be my moral code, why would I feel so sick about what it had to say?
I now see the world much differently. Morals don’t come from a book written in the bronze age. It’s certainly harder to just say what’s right and what’s wrong, but shouldn’t it be? I don’t think we can paint broad strokes on every issue. Sure there are issues that we can say are 100% wrong like murder, rape but I think somethings can be more middle ground. Given the old predicament of lieing to a Nazi to save the Jewish family you’re hiding becomes easier though. You absolutely lie! But when following the holy book you’re put in a pickle because you’re not supposed to lie and you’re supposed to obey your government.
I look at it now more with a lens of empathy. How do I want to be treated on the opposite situation. How can I treat everyone fairly?
How do you get your morals?